I really hope I know what I'm doing...

Today, I made one of the most difficult (and probably smartest) decisions I've ever had to make. I am going back to school. I will not stop until I have a law degree. I will soon begin burying myself in so much debt that I will have no choice but to finish.

A few years ago, a decision like this wouldn't have been too life changing, but for all intensive purposes, these days I'm one of those full-fledged "adult" types, with bills, responsibilities, people depending on me, etc. With that in mind, there are many obvious questions, with what should have been - to me at least - obvious answers.

1) Why now?

For the last few months, I have been diving further and further into a stress-filled abyss that was my career (up until today). For awhile I thought it was just a couple rough and busy months, and that it would all subside. Then a week or two ago I started looking around me. None of us ever seem happy to be there. Sure, we're glad we all have jobs, and there are certainly worse jobs out there, but most days we get paid to be yelled at and respond nicely. Maybe I'm just not masochistic enough to be cut out for property management.

2) Why, of all things, a law degree?

The money is an obvious answer, but it's not my biggest one. For a long time now, law has always fascinated me. And, unlike numerous other things that fascinate me (science, music, wooden fruit, why candles burn unevenly, etc), I might actually be good at it (so long science, wooden fruit, and music that should be taken seriously) and I can make money doing it (candles, wooden fruit, and music).

I actually considered law a few times before, but up until now I've never really been a big fan of school. Which brings me to...

3) You're not dumb. You might even be smart. But surely you've noticed that you and school have never really mixed well. What are you thinking?

It's true. I haven't exactly excelled in the education system since around 7th grade or so, but I also know that all of my failures in school so far have resulted from laziness and/or apathy. For a long time, I really believed I could make something of myself without finishing college. I did surprisingly well at it, too, but I know I can do better, and I will not accept anything less this time around.

Anywho, there are a lot of details I haven't covered yet in tonight's entry. Some of that is because we're still figuring it out, some of that is because I'm tired. More tomorrow...

- Jeff